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22.

2012-02-04T20:42:00.002+08:00

Hello there, I know I have been disappearing for ages. Life doesn't treat me well for the past few weeks. So here I am now, back to my life journal entry. February... nothing much *ok I lie* I have started the pre working thingy at an audit firm. Its been 2 days now. I loveeeee KL ! On the first month working I get lots of public hols :P so pls dont envy much on that. Still the workloads are driving me crazy!

Ohh before that, again this year I went back to Melaka for Chinese New Year visiting, as usual I gonna put some pictures here! It was a superb blast gathering & there were HONG POW receiving too!

So back to the main topic about the working thingy, it was exhausted and yet it is fun. Fun in term of living all alone and doing things according to my needs & wants. Everything is looking pretty well for now..... Ohh by the way. If there anyone. I meannnn friends, you are passing by KLCC for lunch or shops do buzz me ok? I am like 10minutes away from KLCC. My office is located somewhere in the Megan Avenue's Tower. So yeah that it ! Love to be back. More to come soon. Insyallah !

This is a view from my office's window. Up aboveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

21.

2012-01-04T22:04:00.005+08:00

It is New Year guys ! As usual, I have no new resolution or what ever kan, sbb yg lama lama pun tk tercapai. Cuma apa yg aku nk real bad, to be a better person. It is already the time for me to grow up. I am 23 siott. Yes 23. 23! But anyway, still I have wishes to my love ones.

To my #family, I love you mami & Abah the most. Seriously. I love you guys so bad. Where would I be without you guys? Abg Kakak yg supportive most of the time and please more duit raya because this year would be my last year receiving duit raya. Insyallah ♥

To my #gff of course si Fatin, si Aini, Si Izzati, Si Haifa, Si Syafinaz & Si Nabilah Im wishing u guys all the best in what ever you do. Especially si Fatin the babe yg berjaya dalam kisah percintaan dia. Hew hew. I miss u girl. Wait for meeee, will be there end of this month. Izzati, Syafinaz & Haifa, girls that accompany me to do all these crazieh work & lastly Nabilah the girl who I say is a psycho yet sweet.

Last but not least, to all my friends, silent reader and to my enemies. Im wishing you guys all the very best. Leave the past behind okay? Come we goooo to start anew! Ohhh.. its new year, yang hutang hutang tu tk terasa nk byr ke? Hutang tahun baru tuuu. Hew hew.

Much Love,

Zaharah Husin

PS - #gff tk dan nk upload. Pew jgn mareee ♥

20.

2011-12-25T13:40:00.001+08:00

Sedih :'( nak kata apa lagi. Im sad & Im tired. Itu sahaja yang boleh saya ckp sekarang. SOBS*

19.

2011-12-24T22:44:00.008+08:00

Holaaaaaa readers ! KRRRR. Ok my life have been SOOO BZ. I tell you BUSY! So nothing much to be updated today. No more photo shoot, no more travelling thingy and stuff, no more fun thing. NO MORE but another month of torturous journey and then everything will be back on track & I'll be perfectly fine. Insyallah. So today is the 24th. It is Raja Muzzafar Shah's birthday.

Currently now, he is way busy doing his business with his friends. Jamming & stuff, since tomorrow they gonna attend? play? perform? at a gig somewhere in Pahang. So.... lets not talk about him and his agenda for today, shall we? Hik

On Boroi's birthday as you have read just now, he is just way too busy with his friend. So I threw him a celebration in advance. MANA LAH GAMBAR? kan? Syaiton boroi tu tk reti nk bagi ! There are pictures of us acted syok sendiri ♥ Ok sudah, We went to Kuala Perlis and ordered an overloaded food but yet we managed to eat it ! *Ok ni tipu, buang + terpaksa tapau*

Aku ni bkn jenis romantik kan, so I bought him these 2 things, I hope he likes it lah ! Toys + gadget benda yg mmg akan selalu dlm list aku. But then....things are rough now, very rough btwn us. What can I truly say about this relationship. The only thing that matters now we are trying to make an effort for us to stay.

Oh not to forget a special dedication for my dearly Najwy, she gonna get her butt on a plane soon. Next week kan? A new start for a new year in Bristol, UK !

Obit rindu awak nanti, nk lepak Darus tgk kamu sembang tk henti + makan burger kambing tepi jalan sama sama. :'( jaga diri awak dkt sana ok. Kerja sana terus lah. Kalau ada rejeki boleh jumpa dkt sana ! Gonna miss you. Kitaorg akan doa doa kan yg terbaik utk kamu di sana. Love you girl ♥ Everyone is leaving me behind. Sedihnya. Nk ikut boleh?

18.

2011-11-28T09:45:00.004+08:00

When you expect too much on something, you are hopeless in everything you do

Well, I've decided to let go. Leaving everything behind is easier to be said rather to be done. But Im dealing with it now & I feel quite relief. At least... for now.

Off we go now. Take care all

17.

2011-11-25T13:54:00.005+08:00

All woman stalk, so I admit. I do stalk especially...

Kepada seekor anjing kurap? Oh harsh ke ayat ni? Cuma status dia terlalu mengundang. Aku pelik lah kenapa dia suka sangat kata dkt org, even dia tu sebenar lebih jijik dgn najis. Actually 2 of them make a perfect pair. Ini kerana....

1. Si jantan suka kata dekat org sana sini, tapi tk perasan si betina tu kena kutuk sana sini.

2. Si jantan admit betina tu bidadari, tapi si betina tu pun bermulut lancang.

3. Si jantan tu berhutang beribu-ribu, tapi si betina langsung tk nak ambil kisah.

4. Si jantan asyik minta simpati, si betina mintak perhatian

Kesimpulan, yang buruk haruslah dpt yg buruk juga. Sedarlah wahai manusia. Kau ckp tuhan ada. Tapi hidup kau, darah daging pun asal dari hutang. Alahai. Kesian betul kau ni. Sudah ye ckp psl org? Sudah lah buat cerita tu, sebab tu hidup kau susah sgt nak naik, sebab Tuhan tu Maha Adil & Maha Mengetahui.

Label kau agung tu jadi sampah kan without US? Hik kesian

16.

2011-11-24T21:36:00.001+08:00

Jalan yang terbaik adalah dengan mengambil jalan masing-masing. Kau jalan kau, aku jalan aku. Supaya tiada yang berlanggar & cedera.

15.

2011-11-21T07:49:00.008+08:00

The one and only guy in my mind is ________________,

I cant deny that we've been through great moments together in short period. 7 months, supposedly. 3 years of friendship, 11 months of comeback & 7 months of love. In the same time too, I cant deny that we've been in different position in making way for us. Writing this, reminds me of the silly road tour we had. From Perlis to KL, in an unwell condition of Wahap. It took us more than 10 hours just to reach KL. A real grind crusty journey hah? Then, we went for a vacation together. A trip to Thailand, 3days 2night, it was amazing to have your love ones with you exploring new places. He gone through torturous moments with me, I force him to eat what I cooked, I baked cake & cookies to let him bawa bekal pergi office *it sounds corny kan?*, I prepared lunch, I clean his house all alone, when everybody is out because Im just too shy to mingle around with the family and I nag just like a mom. Kan kan kan?

Having him in my life, most likely just like having most precious valuable item in this world. When I say he is no longer my priority, I lied.

Somehow, I hate to let him go. If it is a must, I shall obey it then. You know what? He is full of lumpiness but yet he manages to handle me at my worst. Oh oh he was the one who introduced me "nasi kucing" HAHA, nasi + lauk + letak kicap. Makan kering2 sampai lekat tekak time gastric. Lepas tu kena paksa minum air madu. HAHA. I am dead serious missing the moment :') Screw the ex for talking bullshits about him & for what you have done. You aint worth for him.

PS - I do love you big guy but a lil bit hurt here and there. Better in time I guess. Insyallah....

14.

2011-11-20T14:26:00.006+08:00

“The MOST CRITICAL MOMENT IN LIFE ”

When someone very special hurt you so deeply and caused tears in your eyes then asked..

“What Happened”?

but you just replied,

“NOTHING". I'm FINE”.....

Taken from a friend & slightly edited it.

BUT SERIOUSLY.
Im fine, Im just too tired to think & adapt...

13.

2011-11-19T00:16:00.006+08:00

Dont completely blame your flame for your epic failure in current or previous relationship. Dont be mean, boleh tak? Bosan nya tgk org yang tk boleh stop whining blaming their pasts. Rasa mcm nk tampar je. Boleh tak aku tampar kau?

THIS A TOTAL LIE

"You are different than others"

Different in what term? In what context? Eh come on, benda-benda attitude ni semua mmg lah from the nature itself but still, it can be nurture. Nature vs Nurture. Kalau kau dulu dah tk reti setia in your relationship, jangan blame your past and agung kan your current. Konon he is the one who made you this way. Bullshitttttt ! Tk perlu nk compare your past and your current. Sangat lah tk perlu. Why? I had my MR WRONG too. I dont compare, I wrote shits directly to him. Berani buat mcm tu? Tak kan? Sebab you are lying about your past.

12.

2011-11-18T21:04:00.003+08:00

In this world there is no such word as 'enough'. Seriously, its true !

Eventho when you are bloated, you still gonna keep on nomming. Eventho you are rich, you still gonna keep on digging for piles of money. Eventho when you are tired, you still gonna do more. So you see, there is no such word as enough...It applies in your daily routine & mine as well.

Tapi benda betul kan... eventho when you are already in love, you still gonna keep on loving more

Cantik lah si bakal pengantin ni, ohhh ini pic time kacau orang buat job. Heeeee !

11.

2011-11-09T09:40:00.004+08:00

I feel like writing some more, more and more. I've this crossing in my mind. Wondering, how life should be if, I said the word if.. I've choosen to be all alone for the rest of my life & my life full with acquaintances rather than true friends? But actually I already experiencing one of the if, true friends aku? Muat satu kereta je !

Do you have an if in your life ?

Boleh tak nk if lagi? If, you make it real for me, I'll do the same thing too. Keep this.

10.

2011-11-09T07:07:00.003+08:00

Bgn pagi tepat jam 5.55 pagi, aku terus menerpa bahan ciptaan manusia, telifon bimbit. Dengan berbagai harapan langli.

Tapi benda yang pasti aku akan cari pesanan berkenaan barang yg hendak aku beli, kemudian baru baca pesanan yg lain. Aku membaca satu demi satu pesanan, ada juga tidak berkenaan, tiba-tiba aku terbaca satu pesanan. Kau berubah nampak nya? Kenapa? Semakin aneh perlakuan kau. Aku tak pernah letakkan jarak antara kita, cuma jarak ini tercipta disebabkan anggapan kita. Wahai kekasih eh.. atau apa sahaja yang kau selesa dipanggil. Apa pun jadi, kau yang satu ok? Ingat tu. Tolong simpan ayat aku dlm peti hati kau, kunci. Kemudian kau buang kunci nya ke laut. Jadi kalau aku hilang, atau mati. Kau ingat aku sampai bila bila. Kejam kan aku? Kau pun kejam, cicirkan kunci aku !

Aku tahu kau hati crusty grind-on, tapi aku tahu juga hati kau manja mcm kucing. Kalah kucing aku belai selama 4thn dkt rumah.

9.

2011-11-07T12:12:00.002+08:00

Many people felt offended with my blog, I said it clearly, way back 4years ago. I writing this blog with a sincere heart, I want to be blunt toward myself and others. Thousand apologies from me for making such a negative thought while reading this. I have no intention in letting others to feel my anger.

Hidup ini kan tk semua dkt atas, when you are down there will be someone on the top. Baru balance kan hukum dunia ni. Hukum manusia, hukum alam yang tercipta. Tidak satu pun terlepas. Mungkin harini hari kau, esok pula hari aku. Siapa tahu? Langit tidak akan sentiasa cerah, cahaya yang menyinari akan menjadi malap, bunga yang kembang akan longlai mengucup.....

Semakin lama hidup semakin banyak yang dilalui, semakin rasa diri ini tolol dgn kisah kisah silam. Haha, tolol, bodoh.. ah semua itu perasaan yang setiap orang rasai. Tapi tidak mengapalah, serba kekurangan dan masalah yang dialami tidak tolok banding dengan kesusahan org lain di luar sana. Kita tidak tahu pun perit kehidupann dia. Apa yang pasti, aku syukur dgn apa yang aku miliki sekarang. Sudah cukup utk membuatkan aku gembira

PS - Dont blame your past for the stupidity you've made. It is clear that, action you made was from your sound mind. Admit it, because I do to

8.

2011-10-31T07:55:00.004+08:00

Its a GIRLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL ! New born adorable & huggable niece ♥

Alhamdullilah, someone comes along after the deepest sadness I went through yesterday *tears* I blame no one. The awful truth was revealed and yet my life is still contented. So what sappp? The blog below was written during "TAKEN" mode. Now? I am not sure where is my stand, HAHA but what the hell. Family and friends fill me up, since the beginning. You know that kan? So hik ! Jyeah

Dpt pic tadi : Ini rare* baru berusia less than 10hours dah boleh posing T___T mmg ini keturunan suka posing. Haha. Comel comel comel, Acu loves youuuu ♥

2011-10-30T15:37:00.002+08:00

Your fingertips across my skin

The palm trees swaying in the wind, images

You sang me Spanish lullabies

The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street

You took my hand and danced with me in the shade

And when you left you kissed my lips

You told me you would never ever forget these images, no

Well, I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean

I cannot try the streets at night

I cannot wake up in the morning

Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted

And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that easy to walk

Right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Why can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

7.

2011-10-30T09:20:00.007+08:00

"You cant make the same mistake twice. The second time you make it, it is not longer a mistake but it is a choice"

The quote defines me well. So apa cerita? Commitment? I have mine too. Im giving you all the space you wanted. Go, because you are no longer my priority.

2011-10-29T21:12:00.000+08:00

6.

2011-10-29T10:18:00.011+08:00

An open relationship is an interpersonal relationship in which the parties want to be together, but in which they agree that a romantic or sexual relationship with another person is accepted, permitted or tolerated. To make it simple an open relationship is only for sluts.

This is how a friend of mine defined "AN OPEN RELATIONSHIP"

A comment of her's, lured me to give a piece of mine. I surely admitted that both of us own 2 different opinions, as I define my relationship in a different way. I do respect her opinion, with what she had gone through she has the right to say it out loud. Oh here we go with my output! I do SMS other guy and hangout with someone else in pair. Routines of mine seem to remain the same even I am single or not, the only thing change in me is my emotion. I feel love, I feel needed, I feel wanted and I feel him to be loved and love. Never let yourself to be sexually open with everyone BUT let yourself to be socially open, seriously do you make love with your friend? Gamak ke? The honesty and loyalty beats the definition of others on you. Do tell everything to your partner *the necessary thing* & and things gonna be okay I guess. My love and I, both are cherishing the moment of being 'single' and the no-commitment phase because soon with God's will there will be us in the future. Give space to each other, he/she will accompany you for the next 50 years. I learned too much from my past, I've been through countless unlucky steps & even I got dumped when I was fully devoted to ex.

Do love the people who loves you, but dont love too much. If the relationship doesn't match the everlasting word, its gonna hurt you so much. Dont let others define your life. Let you do the defining, it theirs' problem not yours.

PS - Understands my past, Believes in my future and Take me as I am now. Is what I call acceptance.

5.

2011-10-29T07:33:00.004+08:00

Benda takda lah busy. No, nothing is running fast ke apa ke. Things happened and it happened too that the thing dragged me in it. So, jadi penin penin lah. In a simple word, I am distracted.

Another torturous week at Perlis, just cant wait to get back to Sri Damansara. Eh eh sejak bila Sri Damansara? Kepong kan? Haha. I really excited, dying, shivering *ok over sgt* to meet the one who I rely on in spitting all these shits out. The only person I can trust & count on. Sigh* Seriously, this past few weeks nothing comes in handy. Its bad, its bad, I tell you.

Ini hormon remaja nk membesar ke apa? Rasa dah makin membesar & mengembang dah ! Oh but what the hell kan, I cook during the weekend. Kau ingat aku tk reti masak apa? Wakil peringkat negeri ok. So harini kena study a big MUST to study. Selasa, Rabu, Jumaat dh Midterm. Gimme some of your luck ait & do pray for me.

4.

2011-10-26T09:15:00.003+08:00

Ini kisah di Taman Sri Wang, Arau.

"Woi jom beli ayaq kelapa, nak lah"

"Jommmmm"

Sesudah sampai ke kedai tersebut aku dgn gadis2 gossiper lain pun turun dari kereta comel dunia sbb nk usha usha kuih yang ada + aku plak nk beli air kelapa kan

"Dikkkk, kuih ni sebijik bapa dik?"

"sebijik 3kupang tapi kalau 3 singgit"

"......................................."

Sekali sekala aku tk faham dengan org Perlis ini. Serious doe. Tk fhm.

Pictures : Bukit Ayer

2011-10-23T01:06:00.003+08:00

3.

2011-10-22T08:21:00.002+08:00

Ok pic tiada untuk activiti semlm...

YESTERDAY WAS SUPERB AWESOME, kitaorg panjat slide air terjun ! The last sliding was dangerous and F slippery. Awesome day awesome sgt, blessed *YAY* dpt kwn kwn outgoing sgt.

We shall go again next time, air dia keroh sebab lepas hujan. BUT still , it was fun.

PS - Thank you kwn kwn

2011-10-21T14:33:00.003+08:00

I wish nothing but the best for you - "Adele21"

We been through wonderful seconds together and I wish the moment of happiness remains forever. But a wish always remains as a wish.......

2.

2011-10-21T14:15:00.002+08:00

I have my stand for doing this and that, the main reason I deleted my previous blogs entries is because I am done with my past and I am looking forward for new phase. I read my blog which I wrote somewhere in year 2010 & I realised the blog was meant for KONON my Mr Right.

Mcm rasa tk cool ok, baca benda yang tk menjadi. You get it? Mcm selaj deep sgt..

So I took the safest path off all by deleting all the hatred, guilty, love and etc that I've been writing for the past few years back then. So tarapapa, Im lovin it !

1.

2011-10-20T14:30:00.003+08:00

Dh delete semua posts entry. Im done with my past. Hello future ! Kpd silent reader, there is nothing left to read anymore.

6th Week

2011-10-14T23:14:00.006+08:00

Dear Silent Reader,

Thanks for reading my blog, appreciate it much for visiting it. Its been quite some time for me not to write anything over here. For the past few weeks my life is quite hectic. Busy arranging my study plan & applying 'the job'. Alhamdullilah, this week is my 6th week, I've settled everything including 'the job'. With god will, I will be in KL by January 2012 and starts my basic exposure in auditing.

It is something beyond my imagination, to see me working in the firm. Hik, but Alhamdullilah thank you ya wahai company! My love life? Beyond wonderful :'> He is loving 24/7 *ok tipu* but the main thing is he is such a sweetheart. He is coming over again this weekend. I love you. Thank you for making so much effort for us.

My digits are no longer available since maxis ban me. I converted it from Maxis to DiGi. Off to DiGi center tomorrow *if I have the chance* and we see what is the main problem. So Uyeah. PM me if ada apa apa yah. Bye :*

Doa ; Prayer

2010-08-29T09:22:00.000+08:00

Sabda Rasulullah SAW:

“Sesungguhnya aku ketahui satu kalimah yang apabila dibaca oleh mereka-mereka yang ditimpa bala atau kesusahan, Allah akan lepaskan si pembacanya dari kesusahan. Kalimah tersebut ialah tasbih saudaraku Nabi Yunus AS" ;

“La ilaha illa anta subhaanaka inni kuntu minazzholimiin.”